2006-03-16 10:34:29 UTC
guitars and musical gear, although I've also bought some stuff - but in much
less in quantity, even though sometimes I've exchanged a load of less-good
gadgets for one good mike or something. Sold my amps off long since and now
I'm wondering if I have too many pre's too.
It's just...I'm propably never gonna play another gig or need very
high-quality instruments in a big studio session anyway, so why would I need
more than one guitar basically?
Have I gone mad or gone senile, am I being a scrooge about myself or have I
simply finally grown out of the want for 'guy toys'? Should I just get the
cheapest mail-order guitar and a POD and be content with that?
Everywhere I look, there's somebody who plays better or sings better, so why
bother, I think.
Hell, the world is full of crappy musicians, who still make it, even worse
ones who still strive on stubbornly, and then there are some good ones who
never get anywhere and finally some that do make it. But the point is, isn't
there enough players and singers to go around already, so why bother? It's
funny because next month yet another EP will be released with 4 songs I did,
and the band has asked me to gig with them too, but I just feel I can't be
bothered. Another guy keeps asking me to create a DIO tribute band with him,
they need a singer. Can't be bothered. But it bugs me.
I've done maybe 30 demos, lots of gigs, some EP's and what I'd estimate
about 300 songs I guess and what good has it ever brought me besides the fun
part of creating music? A few dozen radioplays, a few thousand in royalties,
a few thousand in gig fees - but I'm sure it's always taken much more money
than I've ever put in it. WHY bother?
I'm also pretty sure I don't want my son to pick up the band habit from me
either...dunno if I want him to go thru the same hell of too many women, too
much booze and too many stupid tours and tiresome gigs and eternal lack of
Nevermind, I'm just venting my frustration with my lack of ambition here I